Airport Sunday Syndrome

Its almost June and at this time of the year conversation generally revolves round how cold it is or how fast the year has gone, neither of which is wrong. For me winter always comes with a huge dose of the blue’s. And every winter I try to fight it. This year seems to be a lot better, Ive managed to keep running from it by staying busy at work and more recently with my studies. But airport Sundays generally have it all catch up in a breath… I really love living in Cape Town but I miss my people so much. I miss my family and my friends, I miss being able to do drinks on a random evening. For some reason the past couple of weeks have had me extremely nostalgic. Its been almost a year since we moved to Cape Town and things are so different, in both good and not necessarily bad but not so good ways. Im alone. And winter and Sundays don’t let me forget that. Its strange though, this feeling is not unfamiliar and every year since I can recall, I remember thinking of some reason that could explain why I feel this way. In high school, it was literally Sunday anxiety for the week ahead that I had perhaps not prepared for and in varsity it was generally the same. At some point it was also the feeling of being stagnant, the feeling of wanting to be out of home, the feeling of wanting to live with the person I love and not have to say goodbye. But no matter what the reason, the feeling was the same, is the same. This year I call it the airport Sunday syndrome, except today is Thursday...Today I miss my mommy, my boyfriend and my friend. Today I’d like to be surrounded by the people I love. Today I’m remembering the build up to goodbye of last year and how I was constantly surrounded by love of my family and friends in the time before we moved. Im remembering how my dad would pitch up at my home in the middle of the day for a cup of tea and a chat on his way somewhere. My people. I wonder how people do it, just perpetually live in isolation. I quite like doing it for short periods at a time or so I think until I have the company of a close friend. Anyway, this was just a quick catch up. With myself mostly. Im blessed, I always have been, I know this.